Today was super busy. It was my first day in Chambers, followed by sitting on a panel for a public debate, a spontaneous meningitis vaccination, and finally dinner at 10pm.
It went a lot better than I expected. I spent the morning in Court, followed by looking through a current case file to work out where I think we’re liable. The barrister who was looking after me had not, however, mentioned he wanted me to present this information to him formally, until he sat me down and told me to instruct with him, but without any fillers (‘like’, ‘sort of’, ‘kind of’). That made me feel quite uncomfortable, in part because I speak in hesitations, but also because it is (regardless of how it was intended) a gendered thing. Generally women are socialised to speak more tentatively, and as a result tend to use speech fillers to a greater extent. I used ‘sort of’ within the first sentence, and I felt shitty about it.